mencari sesuatu yang hilang

Assalamualaikum :)

sebenarnya, tak ada apa yang nak dikarang sangat. beberapa bulan ni..yes..saya menghilang...tak ke mana-mana pun sebenarnya, saya masih kat sini, bernafas dan berdiri di bumi Allah seperti hari-hari sebelum ni. Ramaiiiii sangat yang cari :3

To all my lovely friends, Aunty Liza, all Herbalifers, and everyone yang rasa kehilangan aku sejak beberapa ketika ni, I am truly sorry. .. minta maaf banyak-banyak sebab macam hilang macam tu jer. and I am very-very sorry for any inconvenient and untuk semua benda ter'effect'.. Sekali lagi, saya minta maaf sangat-sangat.

saya sebenarnya pun, masih mencari-cari. WHY i am here?? the question often come to my mind. why i met this and that, and banyak lagi whyyy yang lain.

pada suatu titik, lepas apa yang saya dapat,dan apa yang saya tak dapat termasuklah result exam, herbalife, personal matter.. saya tak rasa saya nak berhenti. memang bersyukur seadanya tapi..saya cuma rasa, kosong... something missing. bila tak dapat sesuatu, saya tahu, mesti saya lack something.. tapi bila saya gained something that i really want, why am I feeling empty inside??  only the question came out.. I am not happy.

For me, what I've i gone through, those are process of my learning and my challenge..its not easy. and I want to get better in all aspects.

i knew the answer already. now I just gaining something, that i can't learn and gain somewhere. I am now, gathering strength for myself. it does not mean i am leaving everything and get something else. no it is not.

I am still Ummul Aufa, 20 years old muslimah, the first daughter of En. Abah dan Pn. Mama, kakak kepada tiga orang adik dan sepupu2, sahabat kepada sahabat-sahabat, personal wellness coach, and student.

my dreams is always there. I will work for it, strive for it with barakah. InsyaAllah :)

thanks so much to a friend who always lend me ears and pray for me :)